Pruning and Pottery

I find it interesting how just when we are feeling like we are sailing, something comes along and messes with our equilibrium a little. Like, knocks us off our feet a bit. I am in a place with Wayne in our ministry right now, where God is saying, “Ok. So you can sing. You can lead a church in worship. ….Who cares?”

Um.       What.

Just when I thought I was a pretty good person…I’m a faithful and supportive wife, a loving and attentive mother, a super nice person in general, with a positive attitude… but God is right this minute showing me SEVERAL areas that I need to change. Several areas that I need pruning, molding, changing, rethinking. Areas that aren’t easy. Areas that will actually HURT to change. And I don’t mean one. I mean like 5 or 6, that I can think of right now. And they aren’t small changes. They’re all freakin’ big, huge ones. It’s like God is taking a large pair of shears and He’s about to chop away at the parts of me that aren’t like Him. I’d love to share these with you, but I’m not going to. Not yet. I want to see if you can see the change. And maybe that will help me stay accountable.

And this is what I hear Him saying.

“My child.  I have put you in a place of  ministry, and I’m going to expect more out of you than you think I do.  I’m already in your future…I know what’s there, because I’m there. And as a follower of Me, you need to be doing more than just walking with Me. There are changes that need to be made in order for Me to fulfill My will for your life. I can’t mold a clay pot that is already formed. You need to be broken.”

OUCH.

Please pray for me, as I continue to be shown things about my selfish and sinful nature that God wants to change. Pray that I’ll be moldable, and will learn. That I will become the woman He wants me to become, so that I can allow Him to be seen through me.